A Little Blasé - Deployment Daze 294

I received a notice from USPS today to come pick up a package.  I knew that this was the two boxes that my soldier husband had sent home.  Boxes full of stuff that made life more bearable in the sandbox.  He has moved to tent city which means redeployment is nearing.  Exciting right?  One would think so and yet...I'm blasé. So what exactly does that mean?

Blasé - having indulged so much as to be unexcited, satiated,bored, indifferent

That says it all.  I just want it done.  I'm tired of my life revolving around this all consuming event.  There is just nothing left to give to this thing call deployment.  No more tears, frustration, excitement, anticipation, joy, or any other emotion.

So as I look towards redeployment, I struggle to find the sense of excitement that would seem appropriate for such an occasion.  For me it is just one more thing between me and my man. I want to fast forward to the moment when I get to walk away with my husband and our life is not dictated by time zones, Internet speed, missions and missed phone calls.   When our moments together aren't crushed by the overloaded bandwidth and inconvenient dropped connections.  Which of course happens at the most critical moments.

Don't get me wrong, I'm ready to celebrate!  Just not within clutches of the beast.  I've had my fill of deployment and I'm ready to move on.  Ready to throw a party!  Just me, him and the kids.  And...Deployment is not  invited.

To my honey, as we near the final moments all I can think of is the drive home.  While other envision running and jumping into their spouses arms, I think about how I can snatch you from the evil beast and run away with you.  I wonder," Would they notice?"  "How much trouble would we be in?"  I guess it is ok to fantasize.  I know for you it is different.  I understand the importance of coming home and having the closure that only a redeployment ceremony can bring you.  And because of its importance to your transition from one world to the other, I will share you if only for a brief moment.  After that you're ALL MINE!