Only Way Out is Through - Deployment Daze 323

The final day is here.  I woke up this morning and immediately checked my email and the virtual FRG site.  No changes.  No phone calls.  Facebook statuses....normal.  Everything is going ahead as scheduled.  Ran some errands and came home to.....Facebook comments about delays and new calls from Rear-D.  Well crap!

So I check the virtual FRG website and my email, sure enough the times had changed.  Pushed back another two hours.  Disappointing to say the least.  Surprising? Not at all.  Seems to be a regular occurrence that the flights get delayed some way some how.  Still have not received an official phone call notifying me of the new time, and I'm now over half way through the day.  Without Facebook I wouldn't have even known there was a change.

Oh well, what's a girl to do?

The best part of the day was hearing from my hubby that he was boarding a plane home.  No one can prepare you for how that changes everything.  It finally is sinking in that in less than 24 hrs we will be reunited.  It is a weird feeling, full of excitement, impatience, anxiety, and stress.

These final hours are pure torture.  Checking websites every few minutes.  Waiting for phone calls.  Hoping you hear something and then praying you don't.  I've been told that the only way out is through.  So I go through the rest of day knowing that each hour brings me closer to the end.

To my honey, I will see you soon.

When Is It My Turn? - Deployment Daze 321

Finally!!!! Received the phone call today.  The wait has been excruciating.  Going into the last week waiting for some type of announcement, email, phone call, anything was driving me nuts.  Sure I talked with hubby and had an idea of what to expect.  However, getting the official call from "the powers-that-be" makes it real.  It is actually happening...and soon!

Wow!  This means that I'm close to ending this crazy journey called deployment.  It is hard for me to reflect on my experiences over the last year because the last few weeks have skewed my judgement.  So I'll save that for another time.  Right now, I wait and watch.

Watch the time tick slowly and the calendar days roll by.  I've been busy...however that hasn't helped make these last few days any easier.  I think this has been the hardest part.  It is frustrating to say the least.  Knowing that everyone is just waiting...soldier husband waiting for a flight....you waiting for a date and time...watching others celebrate redeployment.  I'm happy for them and yet there is that inner child screaming.."I want my turn!"  "When is it my turn?"  Then I feel guilty for sounding selfish.  Whew!  The emotions are running from one end of the spectrum to another. Guilt, excitement, anger, sadness, frustration, joy, laughter, humor..they're all here, like one big party in my head.

So I keep busy cleaning so the house looks nice.  Getting the dog groomed, boat cleaned, and his truck detailed..oh and the hair, nails, etc.  so everything looks good including me.  And still the time ticks slowly and the days roll by....

And I... wait... for my turn!

To my honey, Patience is not one of my virtues....