Finally!!!! Received the phone call today. The wait has been excruciating. Going into the last week waiting for some type of announcement, email, phone call, anything was driving me nuts. Sure I talked with hubby and had an idea of what to expect. However, getting the official call from "the powers-that-be" makes it real. It is actually happening...and soon!
Wow! This means that I'm close to ending this crazy journey called deployment. It is hard for me to reflect on my experiences over the last year because the last few weeks have skewed my judgement. So I'll save that for another time. Right now, I wait and watch.
Watch the time tick slowly and the calendar days roll by. I've been busy...however that hasn't helped make these last few days any easier. I think this has been the hardest part. It is frustrating to say the least. Knowing that everyone is just waiting...soldier husband waiting for a flight....you waiting for a date and time...watching others celebrate redeployment. I'm happy for them and yet there is that inner child screaming.."I want my turn!" "When is it my turn?" Then I feel guilty for sounding selfish. Whew! The emotions are running from one end of the spectrum to another. Guilt, excitement, anger, sadness, frustration, joy, laughter, humor..they're all here, like one big party in my head.
So I keep busy cleaning so the house looks nice. Getting the dog groomed, boat cleaned, and his truck detailed..oh and the hair, nails, etc. so everything looks good including me. And still the time ticks slowly and the days roll by....
And I... wait... for my turn!
To my honey, Patience is not one of my virtues....
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