I read a friends blog today about self-reflection. You know those times when you take an inventory of who you are , where you've been, where you're going. Questions arise in your mind, "What if...?" Did I make the right choice back then? Should I've done that instead of this? Sometimes we are ashamed of our choices, sometimes we realize we made the wrong choice, sometimes we don't like the person we see staring back at us.
I think it is life's natural process for us to go through a personal inventory. It nature's way of having us metamorphous into our next stage. Similar to the phoenix who at the end stage burns up in flames only to rise from the ashes reborn. Looking back I can identify several times in my life that have been my phoenix moments. There was a time when these moments created a great deal of stress and depression. It led to difficulty making decisions for fear of what would happen if...It was always about how is this going to affect my life and those around me tomorrow, a year, 5 yrs, 10 yrs. It was driving me crazy.
Then I came across this video, Where Will You Be? by Bright Careers. Although it is about careers and the Chaos Theory, the message can be applied to life in general. It brought me clarity and validation to my life. It made me realize that some of those decisions I made in my past were not bad decisions at all. That the decisions I made were the best ones for me at the time that I made them. It was what I needed to do at that moment in those circumstances.
Now don't get me wrong, I have made some GREAT!!! decisions. As I get older, I am more sure of the decisions I make. It seems like there is less pressure. Maybe because when you're old there is not as much time left to suffer the consequences, lol. Nonetheless, reality is that if you truly self-evaluate you will find times that you aren't proud of. All I have come to realize is it ain't all that bad. And that those so called bad decisions were actually great decisions that probably ended up working out for the best.
So if your reading this watch the video. It might make things a little lighter.
To my honey, I love you and miss you bunches. Christmas just isn't the same. It is extremely cold here and snowed like crazy. I've been using 4w drive on the truck to get around. Looking back I am so glad that my path has led to you. It has made every heartache and painful experience worth it. It would have been nice to fast forward and skip some, but then the end result would not have been the same.
Play Safe, Play Smart
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Saturday, December 5, 2009
School Crazy - Deployment Daze 80
Two more weeks and schools out....Yeah!!! It is wonderful in so many ways. No classes, no work. Nothing but R&R. The past week has been stressful. A college campus is not the place to be as Christmas approaches. Too many stressed out individuals. I feel the pain as well. My final project and paper had me at wits end. Now that I have completed that assignment I can focus on enjoying the Christmas season.
I had the best weekend. A trip to Topeka for a day of shopping with my best bud was a welcome relief. I think I have been too secluded and locked up. Completely focused on school and nothing else. I did not have enough time at the mall to really get my fix, so weather permitting, I'll have to take another trip to the city.
My weekend was dampened a little by Steelers and Vikings loss in football. Not to mention I may lose this week in fantasy football. I was doing so well. C'es la vie. Luckily I will still be ranked number one and going to the playoffs. It's so much fun to beat a bunch of guys.
Christmas is fast approaching and it will be an interesting end to the year. I do believe this will be a year I am glad to see pass.
To my honey, the weather is getting cold and snowy here. I had a great time shopping. Thank you for the wonderful coat. I sent you a package of goodies. Mason started soccer and loves it. His coaches are tough so he will learn a lot. They focus on ball handling and control. We all miss you. Tux doesn't like going outside anymore so we have to wrap him up in a sweater and coat to keep him warm.
Play Safe, Play Smart
I had the best weekend. A trip to Topeka for a day of shopping with my best bud was a welcome relief. I think I have been too secluded and locked up. Completely focused on school and nothing else. I did not have enough time at the mall to really get my fix, so weather permitting, I'll have to take another trip to the city.
My weekend was dampened a little by Steelers and Vikings loss in football. Not to mention I may lose this week in fantasy football. I was doing so well. C'es la vie. Luckily I will still be ranked number one and going to the playoffs. It's so much fun to beat a bunch of guys.
Christmas is fast approaching and it will be an interesting end to the year. I do believe this will be a year I am glad to see pass.
To my honey, the weather is getting cold and snowy here. I had a great time shopping. Thank you for the wonderful coat. I sent you a package of goodies. Mason started soccer and loves it. His coaches are tough so he will learn a lot. They focus on ball handling and control. We all miss you. Tux doesn't like going outside anymore so we have to wrap him up in a sweater and coat to keep him warm.
Play Safe, Play Smart
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Holiday Cheer - Deployment Daze 74
The holidays are here and it has been a rollercoaster of emotions. I have had moments of sadness, anger, joy, and numbness. As Thanksgiving approached, I was dreading the long drive to Oklahoma. I was feeling extremely overwhelmed with school work, holiday preparations, etc. My anxiety level was off the charts. I wanted to stay home, alone, and bury myself under the covers. The last thing I wanted to do was drive to Oklahoma and spend Thanksgiving with friends.
As the week progressed and the time for reckoning drew near, I began to feel angry and hateful. Thanksgiving was becoming the holiday that I hated and would never celebrate again. I use to love the holiday season. Thanksgiving through to New Years was my favorite time. I never understood why people hated the holidays. I began to understand. My past Thanksgiving was horrible. This year was headed in that direction.
You see, as I get older, I am getting more selfish with where I spend my time. I don't want to spend my time on stupid, pointless, boring, miserable stuff. My time is precious to me and I want to spend it with people and things that are important. So the idea of 6 hours on the road was not appealing.
The day came to hit the road and I was at wits end. There was no getting out of it. People were depending on me to deliver. So I hit the road in a not too pleasant mood. As the miles rolled on my mood did not improve. I hated Thanksgiving more and more. Here I was wasting time on the road. Then we hit bumper to bumper traffic because some dumbass wanted to be stupid and had a wreck. As I sat there in traffic I kept asking myself "Why?". Why was I doing this if it was creating such misery? Why didn't I tell everyone I wasn't making the drive? Why? Because I'm reliable. I don't bail on people. I take the hit for the team. So there I sat in traffic, miserable.
The time crawled by and my thoughts continued to darken. As my 6 hour drive turned into 9 hours I was grateful just to have reached my destination. I was greeted by my friend and welcomed into their beautiful home on the lake. The negative and miserable feelings melted away as I passed through the door. I don't know what it is but their home has a calming effect. It must be filled with magic. I always feel warm and safe there. Thanksgiving turned out to be wonderful. I had the best time. I finally met all the family I had heard so much about. They were a blast. I am thankful for being able to have Thanksgiving with them. The drive home was uneventful and much more pleasant.
The happy experience saved Thanksgiving for me. I'm still upset about the users in my life. Sick of being treating like crap and then being asked to help as if nothing is wrong. I am tired of giving to hateful, ungrateful, greedy individuals who do nothing but take. My days of charity are over. My time will be spent on the people who matter.
I still love the holidays. Thanks to some amazing people. I have a handle on my final project due in two weeks, the house is ready for Christmas, and I am ready to enjoy my favorite time of year.
To my honey, missed you so much this Thanksgiving. Everyone wished you well and were extremely grateful for your service. They mentioned you in prayer which of course made me cry. Tux had an outstanding time with all the new people to meet and puppies to play with. Everyone loved him. I will have pics and a video for you soon. Weather is really nice here. I thought about you as I watched people dressed in hunting gear. Hunting would have been amazing with the weather being so warm. Hopefully you'll be home next year for Thanksgiving and we'll have to decide where to spend it. We've been invited back out to the lake so everyone can meet you. Then there is Cali and Arkansas. It will be a tough decision unless we're creative and can fit it all in. HA! Love you!
Play Safe, Play Smart
As the week progressed and the time for reckoning drew near, I began to feel angry and hateful. Thanksgiving was becoming the holiday that I hated and would never celebrate again. I use to love the holiday season. Thanksgiving through to New Years was my favorite time. I never understood why people hated the holidays. I began to understand. My past Thanksgiving was horrible. This year was headed in that direction.
You see, as I get older, I am getting more selfish with where I spend my time. I don't want to spend my time on stupid, pointless, boring, miserable stuff. My time is precious to me and I want to spend it with people and things that are important. So the idea of 6 hours on the road was not appealing.
The day came to hit the road and I was at wits end. There was no getting out of it. People were depending on me to deliver. So I hit the road in a not too pleasant mood. As the miles rolled on my mood did not improve. I hated Thanksgiving more and more. Here I was wasting time on the road. Then we hit bumper to bumper traffic because some dumbass wanted to be stupid and had a wreck. As I sat there in traffic I kept asking myself "Why?". Why was I doing this if it was creating such misery? Why didn't I tell everyone I wasn't making the drive? Why? Because I'm reliable. I don't bail on people. I take the hit for the team. So there I sat in traffic, miserable.
The time crawled by and my thoughts continued to darken. As my 6 hour drive turned into 9 hours I was grateful just to have reached my destination. I was greeted by my friend and welcomed into their beautiful home on the lake. The negative and miserable feelings melted away as I passed through the door. I don't know what it is but their home has a calming effect. It must be filled with magic. I always feel warm and safe there. Thanksgiving turned out to be wonderful. I had the best time. I finally met all the family I had heard so much about. They were a blast. I am thankful for being able to have Thanksgiving with them. The drive home was uneventful and much more pleasant.
The happy experience saved Thanksgiving for me. I'm still upset about the users in my life. Sick of being treating like crap and then being asked to help as if nothing is wrong. I am tired of giving to hateful, ungrateful, greedy individuals who do nothing but take. My days of charity are over. My time will be spent on the people who matter.
I still love the holidays. Thanks to some amazing people. I have a handle on my final project due in two weeks, the house is ready for Christmas, and I am ready to enjoy my favorite time of year.
To my honey, missed you so much this Thanksgiving. Everyone wished you well and were extremely grateful for your service. They mentioned you in prayer which of course made me cry. Tux had an outstanding time with all the new people to meet and puppies to play with. Everyone loved him. I will have pics and a video for you soon. Weather is really nice here. I thought about you as I watched people dressed in hunting gear. Hunting would have been amazing with the weather being so warm. Hopefully you'll be home next year for Thanksgiving and we'll have to decide where to spend it. We've been invited back out to the lake so everyone can meet you. Then there is Cali and Arkansas. It will be a tough decision unless we're creative and can fit it all in. HA! Love you!
Play Safe, Play Smart
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Itchy Sweater - Deployment Daze 66
Number 1 baby! That's right I am sitting in first place in fantasy football. Thanks to the guys who won when they needed to and beat my competition. Couldn't have done it without you.
This week I have been a bit overwhelmed with all the little things. I have my two final projects due for class in December. Feeling the pressure to get them started. Also, trying to get appointments scheduled for dentist, eyes, etc. before the end of the year. Just seems like the days go by too fast to get everything accomplished. Yet at the same time the days drag in relation to deployment. It doesn't seem like we're any closer to him coming home.
I pulled out all of the Christmas decorations and started decorating the tree and house. It is a much more scaled down version then when the man is home. I put up a small bunch of lights outside with the help of a neighbor. The difficulties of being short, you know. There are only a handful of decorations around the house. The tree is the only thing that is getting the normal attention. This year it is a Red, White and Blue theme to show our patriotism. Mini-Brian will be the tree topper. It is coming along. The kids and I should have it finished by Sunday. I love Christmas and decorating. So why am I not in a good mood. I should be happy. I'm not. I'm pissed. What's my problem?
I'm getting to the end of my patience with this whole deployment thing. It irritates me. Like an itchy sweater. You know, the longer you wear it the more irritating it becomes and then anger sets in. You just want to rip the sweater off. Well, what do you do when you can't take the sweater off? Your skin is raw from the irritation and there is no relief. You know the sweater will come off eventually, but that doesn't really matter. It's not only the sweater itself, but when you have to wear it that is the most irritating. Going through this deployment now is like wearing the itchy sweater during the hottest part of summer. Completely unbearable. It's frustrating to not celebrate, your birthday, Thanksgiving, Anniversary, Christmas, son's birthday or daughter's Sweet 16 like you normally would. It is especially irritating because all the events happen with a couple of weeks of each other. So it is a constant reminder that I'm missing out on the things that bring me joy. That even though those events take place there is something wrong, something irritating. A reminder that I'm wearing a damn itchy sweater.
To my honey, as the kids and I decorated the tree, I realized how important you are to us. Your absence leaves a large void. Christmas just won't be the same without you. No lights on the roof. No one to bring up the boxes from the basement. No one to put the ornaments up high on the tree. Just kidding! I really do miss your company. We would have so much fun shopping for the kids. Arguing about how the lights should look on the outside of the house. Opening up our anniversary gifts on Christmas Eve. Oh! and spending way too much on more Christmas ornaments that we don't need. All because we want to do a different theme for the tree. Wish you could come home soon.
Play Safe, Play Smart
This week I have been a bit overwhelmed with all the little things. I have my two final projects due for class in December. Feeling the pressure to get them started. Also, trying to get appointments scheduled for dentist, eyes, etc. before the end of the year. Just seems like the days go by too fast to get everything accomplished. Yet at the same time the days drag in relation to deployment. It doesn't seem like we're any closer to him coming home.
I pulled out all of the Christmas decorations and started decorating the tree and house. It is a much more scaled down version then when the man is home. I put up a small bunch of lights outside with the help of a neighbor. The difficulties of being short, you know. There are only a handful of decorations around the house. The tree is the only thing that is getting the normal attention. This year it is a Red, White and Blue theme to show our patriotism. Mini-Brian will be the tree topper. It is coming along. The kids and I should have it finished by Sunday. I love Christmas and decorating. So why am I not in a good mood. I should be happy. I'm not. I'm pissed. What's my problem?
I'm getting to the end of my patience with this whole deployment thing. It irritates me. Like an itchy sweater. You know, the longer you wear it the more irritating it becomes and then anger sets in. You just want to rip the sweater off. Well, what do you do when you can't take the sweater off? Your skin is raw from the irritation and there is no relief. You know the sweater will come off eventually, but that doesn't really matter. It's not only the sweater itself, but when you have to wear it that is the most irritating. Going through this deployment now is like wearing the itchy sweater during the hottest part of summer. Completely unbearable. It's frustrating to not celebrate, your birthday, Thanksgiving, Anniversary, Christmas, son's birthday or daughter's Sweet 16 like you normally would. It is especially irritating because all the events happen with a couple of weeks of each other. So it is a constant reminder that I'm missing out on the things that bring me joy. That even though those events take place there is something wrong, something irritating. A reminder that I'm wearing a damn itchy sweater.
To my honey, as the kids and I decorated the tree, I realized how important you are to us. Your absence leaves a large void. Christmas just won't be the same without you. No lights on the roof. No one to bring up the boxes from the basement. No one to put the ornaments up high on the tree. Just kidding! I really do miss your company. We would have so much fun shopping for the kids. Arguing about how the lights should look on the outside of the house. Opening up our anniversary gifts on Christmas Eve. Oh! and spending way too much on more Christmas ornaments that we don't need. All because we want to do a different theme for the tree. Wish you could come home soon.
Play Safe, Play Smart
Saturday, November 14, 2009
2nd Verse Same as the 1st - Deployment Daze 59
Hmmmm! What to blog about this week? Nothing too dramatic happened this week. Had a relaxing Sunday watching football and getting a day older. Steelers won their game. YEAH! I won in fantasy football so I'm now second in the league. Hahahah! The rest of the week went smoothly.
I'm staying busy with school. Continually surprising myself with the work I'm submitting. I currently carry a 100% in both my graduate classes. I must be doing something right. The professor has asked permission to use some of my projects as examples for next semester's classes. I am learning so much. There are so many really cool web tools available. I'm really becoming a web 2.0 junkie.
This weekend the kids and I saw the movie 2012. I was surprised by how much I really enjoyed this movie. It was more than just your basic disaster movie. (by the way, I love disaster movies.) The special effects were fabulous. The story line was more than I thought it would be. I'm not going to say too much about the movie because that would ruin it. You have to go into it with a fresh mind and enjoy the journey. Take tissue though. There are some moments that are heart wrenching. Afterwards, I was sad because I really wanted to share the experience with my husband. We enjoy going to the movies together and talking about them afterwards. I miss him so. I really done with this deployment thing.
I finished out my week with cleaning and laundry. Tomorrow of course is football. A big game for me in the fantasy league. I could end up 1st. We'll see.
To my honey, I missed having you at the movies with me. It is amazing how so many things lose their excitement when your other half isn't there to share it. This holiday season is going to suck. I sent you another package with Christmas gifts in it. I hope you enjoy what I got you. I have a few things here waiting for you when you come home. I still plan on putting up the tree. We'll take video and pics so you can enjoy too. Our house will be somewhat dark since you won't be here to put lights on the roof. I think we'll go see A Christmas Carol (3D) next. Getting into the spirit. Which means more shopping...Yippee!
Play Safe, Play Smart
I'm staying busy with school. Continually surprising myself with the work I'm submitting. I currently carry a 100% in both my graduate classes. I must be doing something right. The professor has asked permission to use some of my projects as examples for next semester's classes. I am learning so much. There are so many really cool web tools available. I'm really becoming a web 2.0 junkie.
This weekend the kids and I saw the movie 2012. I was surprised by how much I really enjoyed this movie. It was more than just your basic disaster movie. (by the way, I love disaster movies.) The special effects were fabulous. The story line was more than I thought it would be. I'm not going to say too much about the movie because that would ruin it. You have to go into it with a fresh mind and enjoy the journey. Take tissue though. There are some moments that are heart wrenching. Afterwards, I was sad because I really wanted to share the experience with my husband. We enjoy going to the movies together and talking about them afterwards. I miss him so. I really done with this deployment thing.
I finished out my week with cleaning and laundry. Tomorrow of course is football. A big game for me in the fantasy league. I could end up 1st. We'll see.
To my honey, I missed having you at the movies with me. It is amazing how so many things lose their excitement when your other half isn't there to share it. This holiday season is going to suck. I sent you another package with Christmas gifts in it. I hope you enjoy what I got you. I have a few things here waiting for you when you come home. I still plan on putting up the tree. We'll take video and pics so you can enjoy too. Our house will be somewhat dark since you won't be here to put lights on the roof. I think we'll go see A Christmas Carol (3D) next. Getting into the spirit. Which means more shopping...Yippee!
Play Safe, Play Smart
Saturday, November 7, 2009
It's Good to be Bored - Deployment Daze 52
This week has been an interesting one to say the least. It is my birthday week. Yes, you read it right. MY BIRTHDAY WEEK. My birthday is tomorrow, however, I get the whole week to celebrate and be treated like the birthday princess. My family says I only get a day, but in my world it is a week.
Unfortunately this week has not been as light and as carefree as I would have liked it to be. It started off great with amazing football last Sunday. Vikings beat Green Bay. I win in fantasy football. I'm ranked third in the league so I have the boys quaking in their cleats. I saw the movie This is It with my daughter. An amazing film that truly showed the musical genius of Michael Jackson. His concert was going to be breathtaking and amazing. Not a bad start to my birthday week.
As the week progressed, I was looking forward to my son's school performance and a busy weekend with kids and friends all culminating into a Sunday birthday full of football.
Then the middle of the week hit and the world stopped. News came to us that a Ft. Riley soldier had been killed. Within that same day, news of the mass shooting at Ft Hood is aired. This is also the day of my son's performance.
On this same day we go to my son's school for his performance. My son joins the other students and the performance begins. As I look around the gym everyone is happy and joyful watching the children sing. It is at this moment I feel a pang of guilt and sadness. Realizing that while we are enjoying this moment, there are others who are struggling for their lives or worse mourning the death of loved ones.
The reality hits me how precariously close we are to the edge. The event of those two days could have been about me. You see I had become complacent, comfortable in the fact that not much was going on where my husband was. We talk every day. See each other every day. Talk about trivial things. I would ask him what he had been doing and he would reply not much. I got comfortable in the "not much." I felt secure in the nothing. I was even getting bored with it and so was he.
After the past few days, I've realized that there is nothing wrong with nothing. That "not much" is a whole lot of something. It is a whole lot of good, calm, peace, and security. Not much means no one died. Not much means life as usual. Not much means no tragedy, no drama. When your life is good than "not much" is a good thing.
Being bored can be a blessing. Because the alternative might not be what you had hoped for.
To my honey, thank you for the wonderful birthday gifts. My flowers are beautiful. I love getting flowers from you. My pjs and hoody are the best. I'll be wearing them when the Vikings win the Superbowl. I am having a good birthday week. Yes, a WEEK! I noticed that on one of my calendars, Sunday is the beginning of the week. Since my birthday is on Sunday, I will continue to celebrate my birthday week until next Saturday. Yeah more shopping for me....
Play Safe, Play Smart
Unfortunately this week has not been as light and as carefree as I would have liked it to be. It started off great with amazing football last Sunday. Vikings beat Green Bay. I win in fantasy football. I'm ranked third in the league so I have the boys quaking in their cleats. I saw the movie This is It with my daughter. An amazing film that truly showed the musical genius of Michael Jackson. His concert was going to be breathtaking and amazing. Not a bad start to my birthday week.
As the week progressed, I was looking forward to my son's school performance and a busy weekend with kids and friends all culminating into a Sunday birthday full of football.
Then the middle of the week hit and the world stopped. News came to us that a Ft. Riley soldier had been killed. Within that same day, news of the mass shooting at Ft Hood is aired. This is also the day of my son's performance.
On this same day we go to my son's school for his performance. My son joins the other students and the performance begins. As I look around the gym everyone is happy and joyful watching the children sing. It is at this moment I feel a pang of guilt and sadness. Realizing that while we are enjoying this moment, there are others who are struggling for their lives or worse mourning the death of loved ones.
The reality hits me how precariously close we are to the edge. The event of those two days could have been about me. You see I had become complacent, comfortable in the fact that not much was going on where my husband was. We talk every day. See each other every day. Talk about trivial things. I would ask him what he had been doing and he would reply not much. I got comfortable in the "not much." I felt secure in the nothing. I was even getting bored with it and so was he.
After the past few days, I've realized that there is nothing wrong with nothing. That "not much" is a whole lot of something. It is a whole lot of good, calm, peace, and security. Not much means no one died. Not much means life as usual. Not much means no tragedy, no drama. When your life is good than "not much" is a good thing.
Being bored can be a blessing. Because the alternative might not be what you had hoped for.
To my honey, thank you for the wonderful birthday gifts. My flowers are beautiful. I love getting flowers from you. My pjs and hoody are the best. I'll be wearing them when the Vikings win the Superbowl. I am having a good birthday week. Yes, a WEEK! I noticed that on one of my calendars, Sunday is the beginning of the week. Since my birthday is on Sunday, I will continue to celebrate my birthday week until next Saturday. Yeah more shopping for me....
Play Safe, Play Smart
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Plain on Plain - Deployment Daze 45
Tonight is Halloween. As I watch kids and their families run through the neighborhood collecting candy, I realize just how different things are now. Normally when Halloween arrives it is the beginning of a whirl-wind of activity. From October to January, we're celebrating something. Holidays, birthdays, etc. We go all out. There is usually a weeks' worth of work to decorate the house for Halloween. A big monster bash in the making where friends are invited to hang out, costumes and all. Not so this year. It just doesn't have the same appeal.
It reminded me of the day I went to the coffee shop to get a bagel and coffee. Now this coffee shop has the best cheesy bagel. The cheese is baked into the bagel and it gives it a special tangy taste. I usually top it off with the garlic herb cream cheese. The combined flavors are amazing. Well on this day they were out of the cheesy bagel. Gosh, I was really wanting that comfort food because of the crappy week I was having. Oh well, I said to myself and I ordered a plain bagel instead. I could at least get the garlic herb cream cheese. When I arrived back at my office and opened my bag there was my plain, boring bagel, and PLAIN cream cheese.
You see I had experienced the most horrible week to date. I was miserable. The weather was miserable. My job was miserable. Everything about this incredibly horrid state (KS) and town was miserable. And now this. My one spark of joy and comfort. Crushed. As I stared at my plain bagel with plain cream cheese, I thought, "This sums it up. My life right now. A plain bagel with plain cream cheese. Plain on Plain.
A plain on plain just doesn't have the same appeal as a cheesy bagel with garlic herb. There is something special in that combination. It is the pairing of the two that make it tasty. The pairing that makes you enjoy eating it. It isn't as much fun, plain on plain.
So that's how was this year. Halloween or any other holiday/special event just doesn't have that special flavor when someone is absent. It's the combination of everyone that makes the holiday enjoyable. The fun, the flavor, the comfort is in the combination of everyone. That's what makes the holiday enjoyable. Otherwise it's just plain on plain.
To my honey, this week has been hard. You have listened to me mope and be grumpy. I thank you for that. Things just aren't as much fun without your partner in crime. We would have rocked the neighborhood with our Halloween decor. Not many people decorated. There were lots of kids and families running about though. Oh the fun we would have had. Next year we'll knock it out. Maybe we'll expand into a haunted house. At 8:00 exactly the city sirens went off and police lined the streets to announce the end of trick or treating. It was weird to say the least. Once again I say, Welcome to Kansas. Or maybe it's just Junction City. Who knows?
Play Safe, Play Smart
It reminded me of the day I went to the coffee shop to get a bagel and coffee. Now this coffee shop has the best cheesy bagel. The cheese is baked into the bagel and it gives it a special tangy taste. I usually top it off with the garlic herb cream cheese. The combined flavors are amazing. Well on this day they were out of the cheesy bagel. Gosh, I was really wanting that comfort food because of the crappy week I was having. Oh well, I said to myself and I ordered a plain bagel instead. I could at least get the garlic herb cream cheese. When I arrived back at my office and opened my bag there was my plain, boring bagel, and PLAIN cream cheese.
You see I had experienced the most horrible week to date. I was miserable. The weather was miserable. My job was miserable. Everything about this incredibly horrid state (KS) and town was miserable. And now this. My one spark of joy and comfort. Crushed. As I stared at my plain bagel with plain cream cheese, I thought, "This sums it up. My life right now. A plain bagel with plain cream cheese. Plain on Plain.
A plain on plain just doesn't have the same appeal as a cheesy bagel with garlic herb. There is something special in that combination. It is the pairing of the two that make it tasty. The pairing that makes you enjoy eating it. It isn't as much fun, plain on plain.
So that's how was this year. Halloween or any other holiday/special event just doesn't have that special flavor when someone is absent. It's the combination of everyone that makes the holiday enjoyable. The fun, the flavor, the comfort is in the combination of everyone. That's what makes the holiday enjoyable. Otherwise it's just plain on plain.
To my honey, this week has been hard. You have listened to me mope and be grumpy. I thank you for that. Things just aren't as much fun without your partner in crime. We would have rocked the neighborhood with our Halloween decor. Not many people decorated. There were lots of kids and families running about though. Oh the fun we would have had. Next year we'll knock it out. Maybe we'll expand into a haunted house. At 8:00 exactly the city sirens went off and police lined the streets to announce the end of trick or treating. It was weird to say the least. Once again I say, Welcome to Kansas. Or maybe it's just Junction City. Who knows?
Play Safe, Play Smart
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